so-called future

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

cont. with my last post..i need to make decision that i can

a. be not bother about it and leave it a side,

b. think about it, make some kind of detour for my journey

c. make completely abandon about it and regret it in the future

currently i'm in my diploma 3rd semester and will be in the 4th semester for upcoming semester which will be starting this 4th of January..according to the istudent website and those people, we (sem. 3 student) can make choice either to continue our study to degree or just stay finish our diploma..somehow before this i've been told by those people that my course only have that special offer when we finish our diploma and start our degree straight to the 4th semester but suddenly now everything different..we can straight do our degree next semester.huhhh strange..

what bother me a lot

1. i've change my ticket from 27 Dec to 1 Jan, which actually burn my 27 Dec ticket

2. i am not prepare for degree

3. with my result this semester which sucks a lot, i dont think i can do well in degree

4. scare

5. i cant think properly

6. pros and cons leaving for degree w/o finishing my diploma

7. my heart feel 50-50..somehow im glad to have this kind of opportunity so i can meet up with my penisular friend and friends who study there, but .....i just feel so unsure

help? i need a consultant..anyone? sighh*

should i just choose a? instead of b? but im scared of c...