maybe there is something behind what happened so i just keep my faith for the next 1..hopefully..
then...another news received a few days back and before this i just don't care about it..
after the news i got for today, it really not a step up that i need
should i go for it? or should i just stay where i am now?
a lot of stuff cycling around my mind right now..all the consequences that will lead me to something that i pretty much unsure about it..for now..
can i make it? will i do better than now? can i adapt to the new environment there? can i step up my game? argghh
quarter of me didnt even bother to think
quarter of me just feel scare..scare i'll make wrong decision that end feeling sorry for myself
and the rest of me just still depress with the mistakes i made in past
time..i do need time to think..
need someone to consult me..anyone?
parent is a must to talk to..anybody else can speak up their mind? give their thought bout this?
at the time like this..it make me wanna have someone there for me to talk to..i rather say a really good friend that willing to lend their ears to me, not a special one for now..too much crisis going on in my mind and i'm pretty sure there no room for that for now..should i feel stress bout this and that and this?
holiday running fast..is there will be a joy and wonderful news for me before 2oo9 end?
how am i suppose to prepare for a new year? a new lift for myself?
just silly me wondering that miracle will happen..
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