sucks

i like someone but i dont love anyone...

7 days

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

merry xmas!!

Happy hOLidaYS!!

HHHHaaaPPpppYYyy NEW YEAR!!!

Welcome 2o10

Goodbye 2o09

8 days

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counting the days...it feels like counting the leaves falling from the tree..

it is near the end of the year..today i made a list of 8 things i hate and love of the day

8 things i hate:

1. waiting..i am impatient person who doesnt do waiting

2. cookies..to those people i always called as cookies should know what this suppose to mean

3. hot..not entirely hate it cause it make me seems ungrateful person

4. laziness..i got this so-called illness almost the whole day of holiday..im not yet finish do the work that my dad asked me to do

5. boredom..it just killing me softly

6. time..just wish it gone slowly

7. big apple's ice lemon tea..tasteless!!!!!

8. hate list..hate to have a hate list but isnt it abnormal to love everything without not even single hate?

8 things i love:

1. attention..self center much?

2. care..

3. donut..big apple donut..sweet

4. brother and sisters..family is the best ryte?

5. cousin..

6. compliment..who doesnt?

7. music..never hate it except dangdut

8. milk..yummy

im totally bored.....

awakening

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

SubhanAllah..

Allahuakbar..

Human never satisfied with what been given..so do I..

Thanks to Farid to share this song with me..

i do like another song..its nice

9 days

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9 days..time pass so quickly..8 days toward new year

should settle in everything..

need to write down my new year plan..

need to wake my self up from dreaming..

i need a fresh start..something that can change my life..

im a girl that like other ordinary person..have normal desire or need..

according to Abraham Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs..there is 5 classfication:

1.1. Physiological Needs - air, food, shelter, sex and relief or avoidance pain

2.

2.2. Safety Need - safety and security

3.

3.3. Social Needs - love, friendship, acceptance, and care

4.

4.4. Esteem Needs - ego, status, self respect, recognition for accomplishments, anda feeling of self-confidence and prestige

5.

5. -5. Self-Actualization - growth, achievement, and advancement

that means i need all of the above to..

when im back to my campus, i hope everything going smoothly and i wish i can gain more energy to move forward..inside of me, wanna stop and give up but i know i'll regret it later..i think i just need to fight it back..fight my feeling..sigh..it all so damn easy when it just high school..well i should know that it already in the past..so i need to look forward now on ward..

f.r.e.s.h

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

fun..what i had today..

i wish miss malia is here..sob sob sob..

the 'problem' from my last post...today...SOLVED

apparently last night is the last day to apply for it..hurayy? another problem be gone..haha

now i can breath a bit..

next plan? hrmm..

so-called future

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cont. with my last post..i need to make decision that i can

a. be not bother about it and leave it a side,

b. think about it, make some kind of detour for my journey

c. make completely abandon about it and regret it in the future

currently i'm in my diploma 3rd semester and will be in the 4th semester for upcoming semester which will be starting this 4th of January..according to the istudent website and those people, we (sem. 3 student) can make choice either to continue our study to degree or just stay finish our diploma..somehow before this i've been told by those people that my course only have that special offer when we finish our diploma and start our degree straight to the 4th semester but suddenly now everything different..we can straight do our degree next semester.huhhh strange..

what bother me a lot

1. i've change my ticket from 27 Dec to 1 Jan, which actually burn my 27 Dec ticket

2. i am not prepare for degree

3. with my result this semester which sucks a lot, i dont think i can do well in degree

4. scare

5. i cant think properly

6. pros and cons leaving for degree w/o finishing my diploma

7. my heart feel 50-50..somehow im glad to have this kind of opportunity so i can meet up with my penisular friend and friends who study there, but .....i just feel so unsure

help? i need a consultant..anyone? sighh*

should i just choose a? instead of b? but im scared of c...

big news

i just received a bit sad news today. it really bump me big time..i should see it coming though.

maybe there is something behind what happened so i just keep my faith for the next 1..hopefully..

then...another news received a few days back and before this i just don't care about it..

after the news i got for today, it really not a step up that i need

should i go for it? or should i just stay where i am now?

a lot of stuff cycling around my mind right now..all the consequences that will lead me to something that i pretty much unsure about it..for now..

can i make it? will i do better than now? can i adapt to the new environment there? can i step up my game? argghh

quarter of me didnt even bother to think

quarter of me just feel scare..scare i'll make wrong decision that end feeling sorry for myself

and the rest of me just still depress with the mistakes i made in past

time..i do need time to think..

need someone to consult me..anyone?

parent is a must to talk to..anybody else can speak up their mind? give their thought bout this?

at the time like this..it make me wanna have someone there for me to talk to..i rather say a really good friend that willing to lend their ears to me, not a special one for now..too much crisis going on in my mind and i'm pretty sure there no room for that for now..should i feel stress bout this and that and this?

holiday running fast..is there will be a joy and wonderful news for me before 2oo9 end?

how am i suppose to prepare for a new year? a new lift for myself?

just silly me wondering that miracle will happen..

sad :'((

i should cry...but there is no tears

we are...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

forwarded message from my fb, thanks to those who share this with me..

KITA SEBENARNYA…lebih gembira menyambut 1 Januari (tahun baru masehi daripada 1 Muharram (tahun baru Hijriyah/Islam).
KITA SEBENARNYA…lebih tahu apa itu Valentine Day 14 Februari daripada 12 Rabiulawal.
KITA SEBENARNYA…lebih membesarkan hari Sabtu dan Minggu daripada hari Jum’at.
KITA SEBENARNYA…lebih khusyuk mendengar lagu daripada mendengar Azan.
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KITA SEBENARNYA…lebih tahu nama artis dan selebritis daripada nama-nama tokoh panutan Islam.
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Tapi, apabila ada orang yang bertanya tentang arah tujuan kita, pasti kita lebih suka menjawab......
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