nuthin special

2day's agenda : go 2 my grandma hse + help her done
: go 2 blvd wif my aunt done
: cook dadih done

hehe..im bz 8 my grandma's 2day..helping my granny 2 clean up her kitchen..while helping 8 text me n try 2 make me jealous dat he ate choc cake..mean him! hihi..den..i watchd tv..pray..yada yada yada..den go 2 blvd wif my aunt..afta dat go stret bck home n cook dadih coz my mum ask me 2 try da recipe..i wanna share da recipe..but i forgot 2 bring it bck home..hoho nxt tme ayte..done cooking da dadih thingy i helpd my granny made cucur pisang..erm..more 2 cekodok pisang i guess..haha..den my dad n i went 2 kolej 2 pick up my sis frm softball prac...hrm..wat else ho??

nite time..text wif datin malia..talk bout MATRIK!!!! she said dat her dad askd her 2 go..how bout me?? shud i go 2? quite a lot of ex-kolejian dat go 4 dat matrik..i cnt decide whether i shud go or not..i afraid dat if i go der will be no more chance for me 2 go for upu..gosh..i dnt noe wat i want!..when will i be ready to make up my mind n decide wat is bes for my future?

den i go o9..i.m wif malia, ejinn, fellie, zei, n lan..pretty much talk bout uni..kinda..xcept wif ejinn..hehe btw its ejinn's bday 2day..wish her all da best in her life..hope dat she owez in a pink of health..is it correct?? hehe..

bck 2 matrik thingy..my dad said dat i shud go coz he think dat i can do well der..ders go my mum..she said no! same go wif both of my sis..plus my aunt..dillllleeemmmaa! den i go i.m wif my bro juz now..he said if i'm capable 2 do well der den go..most of my frens said..juz go if got any offer from upu go out lo..sound so easy ho..haha..i'v talkd 2 many ppl asking for dier opinion..but in da end im da 1 hu hav 2 make da decision..but 2 bad..i dnt really noe wat i wan! stupid ho..i still dnt noe wat i lyke n wat i wanna be..when i still a kid..i tot dat it is easy 2 be wat we wanna be..but im so wrong..ders a lot of thing dat we hav 2 think of b4 we make any decision wif wat shud n wat shudnt we do-for our future..im glad dat i i.m wif my bro..it kinda help me a lil bit..thanks BRo..really appreciate it..btw thanks also 2 those hu also gve dier opinion to me bout dis thingy..hehe

hrm..well i guess i hav tonne of thinking 2 be done..so dats all for now..

Raining..

its raining drizzly 2day..can say 2day quite a windy day olso..hrm..perfect tme 4 sleep ho? ehehe..

hrm..still in da middle of making da most erk 2nd most important thing in my life..cant decide..where shud i go..hrm..

DECISION..
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PERFECT DECISION..

y? y must we make decision? hrm..stupid Q ho? i need time 2 think..but everything seems lyke in da rush..some say i shud go for it..some say wait..think 1st..think carefully so i'll not regret it later..some say if i lyke da course juz go for it..

shud i wait???

OR

shud i go for it??

gosh!! idk!! my head ordy wanna xplode dy thinking bout it..i think i shud do 'solat istikarah' later..need something dat can guide me 2 make perfect n correct decision..

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clueless..yes..dat wat i am ryte now..

i chat wif Fel juz now..seems lyke she olso in da same position lyke me 2..but a lil diff..still both of us in da middle of making important decision!! den not oni both of us..qila olso got her own dilemma..arghh..hate dis feeling..hrm but wat 2 do..i hav 2 deal wif it..

lyfe is so complicated..

p/s addy idk wat 2 put bout u in dis post..sorry..ehehe

TRip to K.L

B4 going back 2 Miri when I was still in n.s camp..Fel n I hav a plan..a plan 2 visit our n.s frens in May..maybe..so..a few days dy both of us were bz planning our trip..ders a lot of stuff we hav 2 think of..such as..hotel..ticket..food..transportation..da perfect date 2 go der..everything i mean EVERYTHING hav 2 be think of..at 1st i tot oni fun n fun n summore fun will it be..BUt..2 plan only a simple trip still need u 2 think dis n dat n everything...my mom n my dad said dat i need 2 plan dis whole trip carefully..since dis trip oni me n fel going..we did ask qila n eka 2 join us..but seems lyke dey cant make it doe..den left 2 of us..setting a date for da trip is so DAMN hard!!! im telling u man..i tot it is easy..juz pick a date n dats it..BUT hell no..hahaha..we plan wanna go in MAy if can..at 1st wanna go on 30th Apr until 4th Apr..den not confirm yet..since Jamie n Ejinn ordy go 4 col. so dey might be bz..oni on weekend dey can spent tme wif us..hrm..den Fel n I go check da rate 4 da tckt on 2nd May..RM119 dy?!?! den on da 3rd it still RM69.99..but..it is on Sat..less tme 2 spent tme wif Ejinn n Jamie..if we go on Fri we can spent more tme wif dem..den dis den dat den dis again den dat again..omg..when we'll find da perfect date 2 go 4 dis trip??????...im so tired thinking of it..+ matrix intake is in May olso..

12th May

..so i wont n cudnt go 2 K.L on da 2nd week of May..but..i dnt noe i wanna go 4 matrix or nt..i still cant make up my mind where act. i wanna go..ipta or matrix? im so confuse ryte now..dnt noe wat best 4 me..is it going 4 matrix is da best choice or wait 4 ipta is da best choice? i really dnt noe wat 2 decide..CONFUSE??!!hell ya im...lazy..dnt care..scare..all mix up dy..da feeling..

...i hate it!!..

..evrytme i think about it..it make me feel..down..kinda..coz..i feel lyke i hav nthg i wanna achieve..i mean da main goal of my lyfe..i dnt noe xcept 1 thing dat is waiting 2 cmbck 2 where i belong..erk..i dnt thing dat is appropriate 2 be a main goal of my lyfe is it? hrmm..wateva..my brain cant think of a gud thing ryte now..n back 2 da trip 2 k.l...i tot i wanna cancel it..but...i cnt..hrm..hope i'll find a way 2 solve dis prob..i need a brake..dats all 4 now..

p/s i hate making decision but wat 2 do..i must n it is compulsory 4 me 2 do it..well afta all is my lyfe i hav 2 decide ayte?..